Hello Friends,
As a Psychology major correlations are something I am used to. Taught at the ripe young age of 18 that if something is positively correlating than that means the relationship is strong and growing larger. I am finding that this correlation is not always in my favor or positive. For example losing track of time positively correlates with turning in your homework late, not talking to your mom every day positively correlates with the possibility of her worrying, getting a job positively correlates with growing older which correlates with gaining responsibility. Not that getting a job is bad, actually it is a huge blessing. It is also a huge eye opener that I have one more year of college before I have to drop the title of student and take on the title of "responsible adult". No more blaming things on my homework, getting discounts at the muni, late night pool at the student center, or trying to figure out how to best buy my textbooks to get the maximum amount of saved refund money.
This realizations honestly terrifies me to the point of not wanting to graduate at all. I have spent so much time thinking I had time left that I forgot I needed to enjoy life. Right now I am starting to fall into the web of worries about my future but I am stopping that right now. Instead of worrying about grown up Abby I am going to worry about current Abby. I am going to focus on how I can live the most of my life now instead of trying to figure out what to do with it after I get that glossy bold print piece of paper that says I am now certified to hold a career that takes higher level thinking. Right now is time to be a student, to build up those relationships with people I hold dear and to love my campus because in 8 months from now when all my friends are preparing to leave and I am preparing to student teach, I want to remember that I lived my senior year to the fullest and without any regrets.
Hope you all are doing fabulous !!!
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